UVA is love.
Well, it looks like I'm going. :)
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I said yes to UVA
...even if I haven't received my financial aid letter yet.
Because waiting f-ing sucks.
It feels good to be back.
Last week just felt like it could go on forever. I never realized how attached I've become to the Internet until I gave it up for Holy Week. I even "cheated" mid-week to check my hotmail account (and that only) because I was already growing paranoid that some really really important emails could get erased in my junk mail. Turns out I was just being paranoid. Yeah. But there were really some important emails that were sent to my account this week. Like really really important.
God, I could already feel UVA on my fingertips. It's just so close.
But I'm still keeping a vigilant eye on our mailbox.
Ivies suck
I had fun today. Going out is fun. I don't know why I didn't do it so often in the school year...maybe I wouldn't be as depressed as I was most of the time then. Whatever. I needed to go out. Apart from the fact that there's nothing to do or eat in my house, and the fact that the heat here is slowly eating my brain, I needed to go out because if I didn't, I'd get really depressed today. I found out this morning that Penn is "unable to offer [me] admission." Wow.
Now I'm really nervous. I really don't know what I'm going to feel if I find out that I won't be able to go to America to study in the fall, just because of the money, you know. I got accepted to UVA and UW already, but waiting for their financial aid awards is killing me... 'cause they might not come on time or at all, or they might not give me a nice award. I might be getting a lot of pimples because of this. And I thought I'd be stress-free this summer. Guess not. I'm gonna be so anxious all April. I really really really really really want to go to UVA! Fuck.
Oh, God. At least I still have UP. Shiiit.
Damn. Are those financial aid letters ever going to come!?!?
Edit: Okay my UW FinAid stuff is on the internet pala. Fuck. $5K in federal grants, $3K in work-study, and around $25K in loans. Wow. That's just for one year. I'm gonna be swimming in debt for the rest of my life if I go there. So yes, UW is out of the picture.
UVA, please!!!
It's all over, isn't it?
I'm now surprisingly happier than I was last week. I'm over being depressed, thank God. When graduation ended, the sadness I felt about leaving high school actually ended with it. Fuck. I don't know why I cried after graduation. I told my sister it was stupid crying instead of sad crying, then I rambled on with some lengthy explanation about what I meant, which was weird to be honest, and which I don't care to mention now.
Whatever. There are infrequent times in the day though when I would be hit by pangs of sadness when I would think about not going back to school anymore... but I think happy thoughts and they go away. They'll probably hit me a bit more in the next few weeks, and I'll start getting depressed all over again. How sickening.
Sigh. I have pics of the grad party in my Multiply. Go check it out. Or not.